diverted pain

i'd come, today, with a broken heart, blisters on my feet and tired, tired self.
i'd come, today, with my voice lost, my mind a whirl, and night turning twelve.

wouldn't say why, because i couldnt, because even i dont have an answer. i can't jump to conclusions yet.

work was terribly slack but tiring. now let me explain that. picture yourself, wearing furry santa- costume, NOT THOSE HOT AND SEXY KINDS, but ugly greenie and LONG like nan hua skirts kind, black stockings and KILLERHEELS. -literally killing.- and then you are holding a cheapo felt candy bag, with heavy sweets and brochures that nobody wants. then beside you is a rather hot jc guy who is wearing a sandwich board and as both of you cruise around the mall, attracting more attention than fiona xie would, you do that repeatedly for five hours, just walking and walking and walking NON STOP.

there's an hour break in between the five hours, but its literally wasted as you use it to travel, and be reminded that you walk slowly. and by that time, you'd removed your heels and walk stocking-footed. hot guy and you thought., okay la, quite good, slack slack walk walk get 8per hr, until the in charge said she was paying you 12per hr, BUT the middleman took 4 as commission. 4, 4 fucking dollars. he's EARNING 80 from doing nothing like wtf?

okay enough of bitching. i have to endure it again tmr.let's continue. right when you're tired, grumpy and sick of life, right when that boy just pissed/disappointed you, this boy came to pick you up, bought you a favourite drink, your favourite sweet and even remembered to bring your comfy slippers. back home, he cooked you your favourite noodles and massaged your tired legs while you are eating.

that leaves you confused. you think about that boy, who's somewhere out there, who didn't contact you at all since the last phone call which ended angry. you tell yourself he's probably afraid he will further agitate you and thus avoid talking to you. but you know its not the case. you tell yourself to stop thinking, because its only hurting you and it's hard to force back your tears when you are working.

you know its probably the stupidest thing that you wouldnt want to be with this boy who will bring you happiness , and remain with that boy who makes you love him and hate him at the same time.

okay enough of emoing. i have a poem for you guys, please give comments.

trailing my fingers down your chest,
beguiling, us both, enages the test.
the tingles, boldy strode over,
busting all of conscience's cover.

&to your eyes, i'd surrender,
a foolish and selfish dark desire.
all my thoughts, they spin around you,
breeding lust like poison fields.

raping me with eyes that hypnotise,
i felt more bare than realized.
your every touch, is ecstasy,
sheer intoxication that spreads through me.

contaminated with lust,
you became a must.
&this unhealthy addiction,
is the only cure for my undaunting satisfaction.

-drugged sex. VOIR.

inspiration

&disillusioned
-inspiration from moron :D, but poem has no -readbtwthelines- or whatever shit.

what hurts the most;
was when you held me close,
our hearts beat right here,
yet love was nowhere near.

what hurts the most;
was the emptiness that rose,
your tears that fell like rain,
my comforting with disdain.

what hurts the most;
was the pain that you chose,
your love with no regret,
my decision to forget.

what hurts the most;
was my lies that froze,
our love a stolen death,
with hatred herding the theft.

this poem sucks. after not writing and doing homework for like 2654548784548451 years, my english and lit-sense deproved. so give me some time and be lenient on your comments. lol. i have another poem coming up. will post some random chalet pictures and nice videos soon. keep your eye out for them :D

GOING BEDOK NORTH TMR, AS SONY ERICSSON PROMOTER, COME VISIT ME :D

LEO

ROAR. random musings. no slacking in class, for poly students. cuz got MONSTER COME EAT SLACKERS/PONNERS. OMGZ.

ruth: what you want for christmas?
amb: uh, dave's friend BEN. hoho.

bye everyone. :D bye scary monster. see you next year. IM GOING YOUR SCHOOL. COME EAT ME :D

so long-

it has been so long since i last blogged. and now, nobody's online to send me the vids/pics so yeah, this is a boring post. holidays have been such a bore that i went to play maple. and now its starting to bore me out cuz i see pros everywhere and the maps are making me confused.

i cut my hair and dyed it, it looks ugly and the lack of sleep caused me to have pimples. ohmygod. and wb ruth from taiwan, no one appreciates her tie dan except for a few people, namely, me. JUBES ROCKS. and its been so longggggggggg since i played AUDITION so im going to play it now;D

ONCOMING EVENTS: (i feel like maple gm informing the players o;)

CHALET FROM 4DEC to 6DEC, people going please be reminded that you are to bring your 30bucks, if you haven't paid and an extra 30-100 at least for we will have to eat out, order macs, rent bicycles, gamble? and go the very EXCITING escape theme park!

according to stephanie, there are two beds, and two pull-outs from the beds, so 4 beds in total. don't ask me how many people's going. its just damn pathetic. i don't know the date for the barbeque,; update you guys later.

CHALET DETAILS:

-Pasir Ris station

-4pm

(since its 4pm, not early nor late, we'll spend the rest of the day stoning, unpacking stuffs and probably have sex with each other.)

-Bring along alot of cash

-ANYONE HAS A STEAMBOAT_STOVE THINGY? i need someone to reply asap thanks.

-there is no fucking stove there, so i'll be bringing sandwiches. anyone who can bring along food that can be refrigerated and last for a few days, please tell me/steph/ruth.

-REMEMBER YOUR SWIMSUITS, darlings. i mean. its just an "in case."

-to entertain boring nights and bored guys like jiabin moron and ryan, let's bring psps and lappys, to dota or play need4speed., poker cards, anyone fancy twisters?

christmas party on christmas eve 24TH,date may change- anyone interested please tell me, im hosting a party BUT YOU HAVE TO PAY ALITTLE :D its like potluck thingy- i mean. who wouldnt want to go to a party hosted by amber ? HEE HEE. you get nice food, we'll be playing games and you get to wear silly clothings and meet more chiobu/shuaige (s) and even rich ones o;

GENTING TRIP DURING JANUARY. STANDARD 3D2N,

interested people please inform me. :D

oh i thought i don't have pictures, eh after scourging around i found 4416541651021 pieces of dave's zilian pictures stashed away..

and wait OMG I FOUND SOME STUFFS THAT WENDY, EMILY AND CLARISSA WILL LIKE TOO!! omfg. :

i never knew dave was so charming.

LOVE YOU PEOPLE BYE.

after reading ruth's and qimin's emo posts, i've decided to be emo and post some emo things too. LETS BE EMO.

the pain's still extant, just without the tears, without a word. {writing style no.5 }

when you left, it was the last day of october, near midnight. and you made me start november alone. i still remember your messages, the words like papercuts they hurt. i pleaded, and begged for you not to go. begging for a second chance. my heart was wincing, drowning itself in guilt and agony.

when you left, the footprints i left in your heart sank like sand. no trace, no scars, no memories. i cried, and cried. everyday was a chore. i got so tired of being without you. got so tired of trying to make you remember someone you've already forgotten.

when you left, i looked at all of the screenshots we took together. i couldnt play the game that started us out anymore. i wonder if you remember how we first met. virtual world with feelings from reality, ellinia channel 9, slime tree o; i remember the first words we exchanged, your annoyance with my friend, the dispute,.when we unexpectedly became friends, i knew from then i will just fall in love with you.

when you left, i dreaded going to the place we first met. i can still remember what you wore, what we did. when we met; it was one day after jonas' birthday, you wore a white quiksilver shirt and billabong pants, and red/white power shoes. right then, i was so worried that i wouldn't be good looking enough for you. i loved you the moment you said " do you want to hold my hand? "

when you left, everything i stood for fell apart. i cant fathom why i'd never cherished you, and i regretted. i blamed myself, i hated myself. but nothing could bring you back. i see you, the other time i logged into the game, saw your character married to someone else. and i cried. i remembered us talking about getting our characters together, the venue, the date, and now when i see you giving your love to someone else, i could only cry, blaming myself, for you could have been mine. i can only wish for her to love you as much as i'd always do.

i love you,. now and as always will.

CANT EMO ANYMORE. going to cry. bye people

biologywreakage

hello i have to blog furiously fast because dave's brother is on a 24hour doubleexpmaple thingy and if i dont rush, lets see one min i waste typing is like 10cents gone omgwtf! 60cents/hr rate.

amb:why not buy 4hrtimeslotcard? 24hours card sucks dick. are you going to chiong for like 24 hours straight without sleeping shitting sexing slacking snacking bathing?

wei:cuz no money buy la.

THEN LETS look at why maplestory's creators are fucking rich, because there are people like moron and his brother who buy maple ppc like no tomorrow. *PPC= prepaid card, not PCC.








BIOLOGY tomorrow, with socialstudies. let's rock and rot the day away! sunday is for sex&sleep, not for study >: ( anyway, GO CATCH GAMEPLAN, because the movie rocks ;D
dont ask me why i go watch movie. i was under stress. (stress= adrenaline.)


effects of adrenaline. :

-adrenaline causes the secretion of glucagen that will convert glycogen into glucose, and it hastens the speed of breaking down of molecules into glucose for ready use.
-adrenaline enhances vision by dilating pupils.
-constricts skin so that the blood can be channelled to other parts of body in need of oxygen supply.
-increases rate of heartbeat so that more oxygen and glucose can be sent to the body parts.
-perspiration increases so as to cool active muscles.
and blabla.


gagaga; i have youngboyfetish! now its gayfetish. we have many nice videos of dave&moron couple vids that you will love! episodes 2 & 3 will be released as soon as literature papers are over, and when dave finishes watching bleach/fantasizing about moron. periods are so expensive, due to government's 7%GST and that fucking singaporean girls dont use tampons, NTUC dont waiver the tampons pricing! FUCK YOU ALL! now one box of OB tampons is like 10dollars, with 32 tampons.


32/10 = 3.2c (STOP CORRECTING ME WEICXCXXZ)

MENSTRUATION SUCKS! but it rocks when cambridge ask us to {12marks}essay write out the functions of hormones in menstruation~!



Period begins with the onset of menstruation. Anterior lobe of pituary gland secretes FOLLICLE STIMULATING HORMONE ( FSH ) into the bloodstream. FSH causes the follicles in the ovary to mature and ripen, and usually, only one will mature to become the GRAAFIAN follicle. FSH stimulates follicles to produce oestrogen that will keep the uterine lining thick and well supplied with blood vessels. high levels of oestrogen will inhibit the production of FSH, so that no more follicles will grow and ripen. Oestrogen also stimulates pituary gland to secrete LUTENIZING HORMONE, ( LH ). LH, causes ovulation. that will be around the 14th day, the GRAAFIAN follicle will rupture and release the egg into the oviduct funnel. the GRAAFIAN follicle will then develop into the corpus luteum in the presence of LH. Corpus luteum secretes progesterone an some oestrogen. Progesterone is a hormone that will maintain the uterus thick and well supplied. high levels of progesterone inhibits production of LH and FSH. if no fertilization occurs, the corpus luteum will still persist for a while but it will soon degenerate without the presence of LH. with no corpus luteum, there will be no progesterone to keep the lining well supplied. so the egg and lining breaks down, together with some blood, discharged through the vagina onto my 32cents tampon.


you dont really have to read that bullshit you know ;P

i think im relating everything to biology BUT ITS SO COOL> biology rocks. i only chionged read it for like 2days. a1 flyaway. o;

anyway, do you know that a penis cant ejaculate sperms and pee at the same time? BECAUSE you have the SPHINCTER that will prevent the ureter and sperm duct from releasing thingys at the same time!

ABSOLUTELY COOL> :D

DOTA ( dickheads owning themselves arena ) got me pissed but when one dickhead apologized everything is okay already ;D LISTEN CAREFULLY TO WHAT HE SAYS!

okay have a nice day people! SEX&SLEEP, SUNDAY :D

bigfuckingmistake

sorry's nothing but a fancy name,

it takes just two to play the game.

&trade pride for love.

today was eventful. i learnt that the world is full of imbecile idiots whos egos are larger than their penises.

i know it was none of his fault. but i don't know what else to do. his vulnerability gave him away. i saw him struggling , paroxysm sketched across the face. at that moment, my pride burned my face like a furnace. and i told myself i should stop putting him in a spot. i felt my menstrual blood gushing out like no tomorrow.

let's put dota ( dickheads-owning-themselves-arena ) and dickheads aside, went to town with ruth and moron today ;D saw CHIOBU zaogeng! took a pic for you so you can see :D

took lame shots at yoshinoya, the icecream tasted like cheap whipped cream.

HE IS CUTE, okay. and he looks damn hot in his topmanshirt :D

says ruth's friend " how come your friend everytime take pic so sad? "

>: ( ruth cant be sad. her fringe rocks! :D

i am ARABIAN CHIOBU. cuz cant see fuckface/ :D

NICE VIDEO! :D

bye people. love you so much.
ps ruth: YOU ARE PRETTY NOT LIKE HER SO dont be sad, i love you okay!

paper2math

i think i think too much.

jessie wanted to laugh her ass off.

jessie: 0.007646364 3sig.fig
amber: ans- 765.

adilah: malay can eat shit.
amber: hcl too.

anyway, hurray and let us all burn away those happiness-sucking, spirit-dampening, brains-shrinking math tyses and endless stacks of math noone bothers to do. NO CAN'T BURN. got carbon dioxide emission - greenhouse effect and smoke. o; too much studying. i'd been dreaming about figures and global warming and macdonalds since the approach of o levels till now.

paper2 math was relatively easy. i can pass that. BUT I WILL FAIL PAPER 1 WHICH THEN DEFEATS THE PURPOSE because i will fail overall >: ( i totally cant wait to go nan hua again next year man. HCL TMR. THEN I WONT EVER WRITE CHINESE EVER AGAIN. i will be like moron and write "bye" in his eoy chinese letter writing. oops. :D

thanks to all those who encouraged me and helped me for my math, though i will still end up failing :

dad
tim
dan
bro
ezra
dave
ryan
ruth
qimin
jessie
adilah
junliang.
sister >- forced.


if i pass all of you gets ICECREAM :D
if i fail all of you donate me 5dollars ea to retake paper!

kthxbye!

englishpaper

like fuck, i know i shouldnt be blogging now, its math paper 2 tomorrow and i already screwed my paper 1 today. BUT HEY, i screwed english too. i just think that the entire olevel is screwed x3395237497875872.

i spelt differentiation as differentation. and for compo, the topics are all like shit. i had to choose HEROES, ( my usual one word routine ) but i wrote cheesy CHEENA-PATRIOTIC-BULLSHIT which is influenced by linkin park and counterstrike. even i can't stand it. had time to make a copy, as usual :P hehe.

HEROES ( GCE OLEVELS ENGLISH PAPER ONE 2007 )

One of them was half buried in the dirt, his blood dyeing the soil a crimson red. The pain was so excruciating that he perpetually felt as though he was being ripped asunder. He thought of his family, his eager wife and children and tears broke out in an unmannered gait.

He could be your son, your husband, or your father. He is one of the many men that the world calls "Heroes". In every battle, every war, every political dispute, lives are are lost. Hatred, discrimination and greed are all fused together, coagulating into the spark for war. Then came our fine fellow countrymen, lugging the boulder of political abhorrence, risking their lives for the country they love.

Blood, their blood was shed, splattering all over the ravages of war. You see them on television and newspapers, in their dirty and faded uniforms, but that's all just a smudged facade. Deep inside, their strength and pride are still fervently extant. The dusty roads, the firing of nuclear weapons and husky static commands over the walkie-talkies seemed so vaguely evocative and familiar. You may have come across them, playing your fake war strategy game in that familiar backdrop on your laptop.

Yet it is so different in reality. Our heroes, they suffer asphyxiation from the rising dust and dirt. The army commands are not recordings repeated over and over in your game, but real, stentorian and ever changing. Those commands could change the world, bring our countries pride or take away their lives. Our heroes wield weapons with aim to protect, not attack, yet those weapons, those very weapons could take their lives.

You wait at home, eager and anxious for his return. Mixed feelings run amok in your head, receding and recidivisng again and again. You feel proud of him, yet feel angry and lonely at the same time, blaming him for going to war to protect the country. The end product is bittersweet, destitute of the ending and of which you feel more, happy or sad.

Our heroes carry the weight of our countries on their shoulders, laying down their lives, fearless and menacing. Every bomb, every bullet, every drop of blood which they receieve and attack,they do it acquiscently. There is no greater word than "love", even it being an understatement of what drives our heroes so far. Gratitude is not enough. In everyone of them, bravery is embedded inside. When he once protected you with his arms, you felt like his embrace was the world. Now, he is using his arms as a pillar to support the crumbling world. You could smile amidst your tears, secretly praying for his safety and praising him for his courage.

When they return in triumph, the air will be soaked exulant. The sweet smell of blithe will rise as high as the zenith of the sun and at that time, we can truly bow our heads in the utmost respect, cheering for our heroes. You could embrace your husband, your father, your son, and that could represent everything, - And that's all that he needs.

im going off to fuck myself. the compo is fucked. im fucked. life's fucked. math's fucked. everything's fucked.

yzafxcc

;p looks like everyone's bored already! o levels came and i already screwed my first paper, which is ELECTIVE GEOG, that i had conscientiously studied and memorized the whole fucking book!

"please state the differences between non-renewable resources and renewable resources. 8marks "

and WHAT THE FUCK IS MG ROVER VOLUME CAR. like i know.
i know volume = length x base x height.

WILL POST PICTURES AND A CHINESE LETTER TO MAKE YOU LAUGH, after my HCL paper, which is on wednesday :D
MATH ROCKS. love it man.

encore reedit

{ im giving up.

everything.

because you screwed it up. }


&ILOVEYOU, was said too much. we became deaf to it. it became our hello&goodbye. it became our sorrys, our every word, our excuse, our escape, our reasons, our problems, our blinded denial.

&ILOVEYOU, was said too much. it lost its meaning, we no longer remembered how it should feel like to hear them. our hearts are like the walking dead, desolate of emotions, betrayed by its very desire.

&ILOVEYOU, was said too much. we paid too much, we struggled too long. that ILOVEYOU, was not our buoy anymore, but an anchor weighing us down. and ILOVEYOU, it became a fear, three words i dreaded to hear, for it attaches itself to me like a sin, playing my conscience out like a hollow shell.; feeding on my guilty heart. and ILOVEYOU, it made me cry, first it was for happiness, i dont deny. but now, your ILOVEYOU is hatred, its a habit for its said too much. your ILOVEYOU, is now patronized by hatred, your vengeful heart.

&ILOVEYOU, was said too much. boy, everytime you say your ILOVEYOUs, i forgot how to smile, forgot how to cry. my face is a painted portrait, inscrutable- too tired to carry on.

}have you forgotten., everything that i wanted?

;_ { you are a sin }

i have a shit load of rubbish pictures with me today. more arriving tomorrow. keep your eyes peeled :D

&my love for cash, would you ;

&distrait but still so alike, silence speaks for itself. ( mushroom is extra ) its just ABSTRACT, k. nothing else. :D


&my horny mushroom.

&sleeping bangala was happily snoring away ;D wanted to bring sleeping bags to sleep with him.

alot of things happened lately, o; dave did stunt one week plus ago and i only blog about it now o; anyway. cheesy is an understatement, man. if you have a house facing your open space carpark, this is what you get from apologetic males :

said horrified mum : was just wondering which crazy fella did it for some crazy girl and it turned out to be my very own daughter! oh my god.

CHIOBU OF TH. DAY :

PCC MATERIALS! COPY THEM TO YOUR DESKTOP BACKGROUND NOW!

look at her smooth sexy legs. oh god. the stockings are just so, so seductive. her makeup is just so svelte and sexy. her vavavoom figure just makes you want to embrace her. kiss her lips and caress her breasts! lift up her tiny black dress, strip off her white nettings and finger her till she moans! THATS LIFE MAN. are you cumming yet? :D
( i really hope mr.foo aint reading my post now o; )

;_ { &this boy, love isnt enough. }

to you: i'm always here. you now have the weight of your family on your shoulders, so take care of yourself first. all these pictures, reminds me of how much you love me.

&remember, the day we met. i knew i was going to fall in love with you. and i didnt regret.

&the way we kissed, it seems to tell me how much you love me.

&remember,the way i whisper into your ear, the scent from you, an ecstasy.

&your cheeks, i won't forget. the feel of your skin against my lips.

&how i love it when you lie on my shoulder. i feel like i want to protect you o;

&the every stunt we did.

&your signature pose

&when im in your arms, it felt like the world.

&i gave you my love, boy; we'd going separate now, but our past still entwines.

i promise i'll still be here for you, boy. take good care of your health.

OKAY ENOUGH OF TEAR WIPING AND EMOING, people. go to bed.

for daniel/

for you, boy. :

we may lose this love that we'd been having soon but as like words are still words, memories are still memories. i thank you for all that you'd given me. in this 8months, i am glad that i'd gave you my love. something to vindicate a claim, it was mostly of my fault on my part, that caused this relationship to fall asunder. so , im sorry boy. and just like any standard template, i'd wish that you will be able to find someone who will love you as much, or more than i'd loved you. this is for you-

I saw a familiar glow emitting from the darkened bedroom and noticed that the door was left ajar. I gingerly opened the door alittle more, easing myself into the room quietly and stealthily. I gazed at where the light was, noticing it was contained in by yet another silhouette of the boy I love. I tiptoed and caught a glimpse of the screen of my handphone, blurred. He was crying.

Pangs of guilt overwhlemed me as the messages, full of sweet nothings played across my mind. And now, this boy knows about the other boy that I thought I love. my heart squelched and tightened, washing me with asphyxiation. The room seem void of air and guilt surged through me. Paroxysms danced across my chest; my knees grew weak as I knelt behind him feebly. I threw my arms around his tiny waist, a minute size of my tremendous guilt escaped from my lips. I begged for forgiveness and the usual clinche " I can explain ". He shrugged me off, failing to muster any strength to push me away.

The room was of a dead silence. I could hear the stale air mocking in my ears. His sobs interrupted the silence occasionally and got more tense whenever I tried to speak. My mind fumbled to find something to say but words lost their sense of directions. Tears tumbled down my cheeks. "Sorry". but it came out like a puppy whining. A loud bang and then "bam" again, as i saw my phone being flung into the engulfing darkness of a lonely corner. He spun around, his angry fists unclenching. I felt his palms closed onto my arms in a vice-like grip, the stickiness from his sweat clung on to my bare flesh. Immense pain shot through me and I felt my arms bruising. But guilt and shame forced me not to retailate, not to shout nor struggle. I felt his weight on top of me as I fell onto the bed, His tears staining my nightgown and his breaths short and painful.

"Why are you doing this to me? " it was a question so light, so quiet that it flew off with the passing wind. Yet. I found no answer. This boy wants to tell me how much he loves me, his voice so,so sad that i heard my own heart breaking. I opened my mouth to speak as his teardrop landed on my tongue. It tasted so bitter, as bitter as how I had caused our relationship to become. Adrenaline surged through me as i felt a force gathering at the tip of my hand. Then, an invisible force propelled my hand up and forward, landing on his wet face witha stinging sharp smack.

His eyes widened with unprepared shock. In quick reflex, he lifted his hand, ready for a counter attack. but his love was quicker, tugging at his raised hand, compelling him to stop it. He then collapsed down onto the bed next to me, sobbing into the sheets. I felt angry. He has no reasons to be angry. It was that the other boy who has stolen my heart away from him. It was the fault of this boy, for leaving its cage open, poking it with sharp sticks, allowing it to fly away. I heaved my body weight against him, in a meek attempt to push him off the bed. But he did not budge the least. In fact, I found myself falling off the bed instead. It then struck me that our love was like the bed. I was the one pushing it off balance, only to be the one falling myself. I gave up, sauntered to the far side of the bed, rolled over and tried to sleep.

I had a terrible dream which jerked me out of my sleep. I felt his warm,small frame behind, his gentle arms over my body. His steady breathing, his snores, our bodies entwining, struck as an evocative nostalgia that stabbed my pining heart; the heart that was taken away by the other boy. At such a reminsc of such a love, my heart grew wings, desperately flying back to me. Moonlight streamed in like a magical stairway, pooling onto the bed like a halo of light. In the incandescent light, I saw the boy's face, swollen from crying, eyebrows wired into a frown. I kissed him.

Even if it's just one more night, I wanted to make it perfect. I kissed him again, nuzzling my way into his arms, found my sweet spot on his shoulder. I slipped my leg between his, pulling him closer. I sniffed his cheek, the familiar smell lingered in my mind. And in the moonlight, i thought i saw him smile.

I loved him.

&

Olevels are coming ;D im so excited. I'll be blogging lesser now, i'd decided to hit the books. be posting some pictures later on. got chio bu introzxz you. byebye.

[ - zFiRAz - ] says:
yes i know ..
[ - zFiRAz - ] says:
lol blog -_- about a rabbit okay :

rich people's bunny (expensive ones) sleep like this:

poor people's rabbits ( cheapo one like mine ) sleeps like this :

{ o.9% voir; _ your sultry eyes says:
FUCK CHIO
[ - zFiRAz - ] says:
pity singapore dun hav cars like this
[ - zFiRAz - ] says:
lol =(
{ o.9% voir; _ your sultry eyes says:
it is taken in sg

P.S moron: BUY THIS. then all girls flock to you. even tim o;

hey there delilah

you are a murderer when you speak
the words kill me with lightning speed.
my heart fights a losing battle
never learning, egregious ever.

iloveyousomuch

i don't know who to say it to anymore.

unwowed

failed attempt to make poem,. but will post it anyway. its getting late and im cranky. i mean its late and im getting cranky. failed math, second lowest in class, ruth&amb just totally bff. one f9 slapped in my face doesnt seem to motivate me much thou.

mushroom's called retard. i think it looks retarded and it bounces. jiabin tried it and jessie raped it.


emo picture taken that gave me emo shit inspiration that triggered negative comments from everyone. posting later.



wilson thong spammed stupid pictures of such things over msn, grow up, boy.



okay here's the thing, before you read the poem with high hopes. instead of adopting my usual style of writing that requires erudite study of the poem, i was trying out a different way, using my structure fetish. this poem fuses simple words, shorter sentences, bringing out the story in a simpler, easier to read way. so please compromise your expections to the core of the very basic goal i was aiming at.

this is an emo poem. okay, duh.

ectastic kill

let time pass me by
and your arms be my sky.
let tears make me blind
and your vision be my eyes.

my tears, your blood
our hatred that floods.
my lies, your heart
our world that parts.

let you not ask me why
my lies are unbenign.
let us not deny,
the love that will decline.

my anger, your dismay
our past that grays.
my insistence, your way
our love that dies today.

okay that's it. im very emo now. i want to cry. i cant find one of the poems, written using my style. it rocks cuz not many people exactly sees the meaning. there's a story in EVERY line.

i found it :D okay do a compare. :

malicious irony.

the truth filtered through like diamonds,
yet alittle at a time, love confinement,
cant lose what love never had before,
reticent of lies, or none at all.

yet the yearning, that poor girl
her eyes cried to blood from water.
heart, alas trapped even with wings
lips losing the consonnace to sing.

static chimes in the phone line
inscrutable monotone, location undefine.
his husky voice, near yet far
inextricable before, strangers now on par.

chasing the shadows of her broken dreams
irreplacable evocation it seems.
elegiac mirth drove close to suicide
mediocre bullet, fate decides.

okay bye, im peeling like a snake.

quizresults

thank you to all of you, for taking my quiz especially my didi, ruth and klinsen and wendy for getting a heartbreaking and staggering score of 20 & 30. sobs. then congratulations to moron steph and daniel for getting 100 and 90, thou i have no idea how steph got 100, probaby did a test run or something. ;P

vivo was badbadbad, ruth looked like my mother in her stylish dress, no im not saying she's old, im saying i look waaaaaay too young deckered in my tshirt shorts slips. so yeah, and p.s, i think vivo is a waste of space. DID YOU HEAR IT, VIVO IS A WASTE OF SPACE. WE DO NOT HAVE SPACE LIKE CHINA, SO WE BUILD UP NOT FAR,. AND HALF OF THE FEMALES AT VIVO ARE WEARING HEELS. IF YOU WANT MORE BUSINESS, ENSURE THAT THEY CAN CONTINUE WALKING WITHOUT BRUSING.

do you know that vivo is so big that i can get lost even though im only on the first floor? MOTHERFUCKING BIG. why would you want a BATA shop that is as big as a 3room flat. WTF. i rather they use the space to like build outdoor theme park or something. okay enough of bitching.

have a nice day. bye.

lol quiz.

YO PEOPLE. IM BACK, FEELING MORE EMO THAN EVER.
i am fat, ugly, whatever~ diarrhea is like everyday for me, i hope it makes me SLIMMER. then its worth the pain and agony. lol.

I've got a nice quiz for all of you man. SO TAKE IT. ;D

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=070920111307-511254&

no cheating :D

random

random klinsen :

http://youtube.com/watch?v=QHv3HboV6ns

random search :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnFV-fvgOu0&mode=related&search=

note: you have no idea. i want a parrot now. and will name it dickhead. together with my rabbit, goldfishes, cactus and 3 mushrooms! i will train it to scold vulgarities so that next time when i have a messy quarrel, i need not talk, it'll do it for me : P

justus: omg.. you are a dinosaur. you are still using paint? o;

amber: yes, what can you do about it?

justus: haven you heard of photoshop?

amber: dont force me to blog about you.

justus: uh, if you do, your blog will be an international hit.

dave: how come your fever is so high, must be cuz im not there.

amb: uh, if you're here, i will be hot enough to cook a whole chicken.

dave: not so kua zhang la, egg, maybe.

amb: wtf? okay you are hotter than the sun.

dave: ( falls for the trick dumb-ly ) of course la, the sun's so faraway!

( he has no idea, i didnt mean the heat the sun gives out from the galaxy to singapore, but the temperature of the SUN itself. )

AHA IDIOT : D
anyone interested in him please pm me! he is called DAVE, 18, single, short and stupid :D

says google.com: the temperature of the sun is approximately 6000°C .

THERE IS A DISGUSTING BUG ON MY ALARM CLOCK.

*screams abit. rabbit looked up from its stone food bowl -,-

btw dave reminds me of a picture xiao xin sent me, says it, a simple question from whowantstobeaMILLIONARE.

what is the largest of the answers below?

-Watermelon

-Elephant

-Moon

-Golf ball

Woman answered : ELEPHANT.

what about you? :D

Dave sure answer elephant too. but as aliken to the sun thing, the answer is moon, we measure the size of the REAL MOON, not the puny moon we see from here.

and look at what people from around the world do with their 80dollars & "god-given" bodies. :

i believe he meant: fuck the world.

human advertising? o.o

wow, michael jackson hater.

okay the green thing, i suppose its chocolate. and the devil scaring it, no link at all.
yeah people. bye man -,-

p.s JEFF GAVE ME INSPIRATION AGAIN :D here goes. :

& just as i thought you were the one,
time revealed otherwise as truth becomes.
i opened my heart to you,
yet you slammed it so hard i could no longer feel.

you scrutinized my agony with disbelief,
shaking me off with false relief.
tell me, girl,what are you going to do,
corrode the memories of me and you?

im closing my eyes, sorrow resides,
invisible tears leave me, in fancy flights.
mind's falling into the bitter relapse.
inscrutable expressions as a decoying pretext.

asunder is my guilty heart,
admitted to allowing its foolish counterpart.
don't shower me with your duplicated lies,
then hurt me with your false love that denies.

i loved you girl, but now its over.
& i missed you girl, but im here no longer.

omgx10

OMG I KNOW I SHOULDNT BE PLAYING BUT :

remember this? it was the previous one:



now i have another JUST!! :

it was a finish move again! yay :D amber,amber. look at my score, ITS 6 digit when people has only 5! LOL ;x

and today was "borrow-tie-frenzy". being like 4eleven, the typical every-teacher-discriminate class, more than 50% of us didn't bring our ties. so blim, being a bitch at times, asked us to go find ties. scurrying around like white mice, we ran down to terrorize the sec3s for ties. Blim even said some girls tried tie-robbing. ( forcefully pull ties off juniors. ) seems like all of us were pretty worked up enough for prelims. hur`

thanks to klinsen for both the calculator and tie, and wei cong too, for the tie to lend joy! although you don't even know i have a blog -,-but you stay 7 floors above me! you will know someday. LOL. revising later, with ruth and her brother and brofriend.

"PARAGRAPH DELETED DUE TO EXCESSIVE EMOTIONS AND WASTED WEEKENDS FOR SOME PEOPLE AND UNRULY SPAMMERS WHO DONT BELONG ANYWHERE! IM PRETTY AND GOOD AT ENGLISH SO GO FUCK YOURSELF! "

random: i think tall, slim guys are the sex! bye-

new blogskin but failed attempt

tell me about it! i spent so long drawing it but i can't find a template code that i like to fit the picture in. im still figuring, but if anyone wants the picture, tell me. i'll send it to you. LOL i made a blogskin for my sister!

VARIAN SAYS I NEVER UPDATE PICTURES. o,o so i zilianed abit and took TWO, but this one is nicer, so show you! LOL. see that guy behind me.? coughs. he kept looking at me -,- JIABIN IS VERY MEAN;

jiabin : i dont like to take bus with amber.
amber : why?
jiabin : because alot of the poly guys keep looking at you.
amber : fag you -,-

wendy & jessie : that day *** break down, damn funny lor.

i think my friends are so cute! wendy jessie and jiabin was reenacting the scene of some girl in my class. uh. yes gossip. i dont really have the thing for it but i like listening. especially when wendy is acting the scene.


jeff: eh send me the link leh.
amber: link for what?
jeff: the poems you wrote in mak's blog? you copy from website one right. share leh dont unfriendly.
amber: wtf! i wrote them myself!
jeff: lol dont lie la. eh send the link leh.
amber: ..

OMG JEFF YOU DARE DOUBT ME!&*%^#$
here is a poem I WRITE, inspiration by you, but female version.
{p.s dont think too much. poem's emo but bears no meaning }

the sky's a perpetual gloom,
warning of a love bound for doom.
the clouds painted a crimson red,
crying for the ultimate heartbreak.

a wasted glory of mirth,
prime of hatred, the very first.
truncated, fate, we got so lovedrunk,
failing to see, what we've become.

i'm causing you pain,
its too impossible to remain.
i'm bringing you hate,
freedom stretches like an open gate.

i killed my heart, and let you go.
drowning in tears, yet i won't show.
watching the provebial sunrise,
my love's smothered in surmise.

now i see you with her, can't help but cry.
blaming myself, for you could have been mine.
the rain won't stop falling since you went away,
yet wrong had i, i didn't want you to stay.

i love you, boy.

English paper 2 tomorrow, wish me luck, ya'll.

mak emo.

God, i didn't know Mak has such an emo, pink- cute- bunny blog.





MATH screwed me in all directions today.


you won't believe it. i was actually 30mins late for my god damn FIRST prelim paper. why must it be math. omg. i hate math. reflexive has so many new exciting games! walaozxcz.


and guess what. SOCIALSTUDIES screwed my hand. i wrote 2pages for a 6mark question and half a page for a 12 mark question so yeah, that rocks. and i think my microwave exploded. I HEARD A POP SOUND.





brb.





okay it was popping but didn't explode. bunny's making music with its metal bowl. it eats more than any one of us in our family. goldfish ranks second. sister's obsessed with the pc just as much as daddy. something good about having your father crazy about the computer games is that whatever thats spoilt., ( speakers & keyboard for me ) you will get them changed to a new one. good! :D





okay ttyl, sorry for msn language but im screwed today.





gtg bbye cya . HAHA





b4 i go, here is cute guy pic for you, interested please tell me. btw he stays at kallang and people nickname him ANACONDA. you know what i mean. winkwink.

p.s sorry ben but im bored and you are too cute, anyway , right! :D

wakjk

went out with dan today, it's our 7th month- so yeah, he bought me a guess wallet.
its what i always wanted and im so damn touched. NO IM NOT MATERLIASTIC. and he lost to me in mario kart. EVERYONE LOST TO ME IN MARIO KART :D

right, ruth? HAHAHAHAHHAA=x

went sakae teppanyaki at cineleisure! if you are rich, please go try it. the food's nice.
thank you baby. for everything, for today. but you still owe me money =x LOL
( stop stealing my food while im bathing >: ( )


anyway, BROTHA HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY =/ andy's SO DAMN CUTE. he was cowering behind his jacket. ( now i know what his jacket was for. i thought he was cold ) everytime he dont see the movie he waste 10cents. so lang fei.

movies you must watch:

i know who killed me nc16
1408
dead silence
evan almighty

movies you must NOT watch:

apartment 1303


kthxbye people.
( snatching porridge from daniel now. )

woohoo

dan: ambertouille !


i like to cook, yessssirrr i can give you ANYTHING you want. that isn't expensive, unless you pay. :D wanted to revise with ruth but rainy weather spoilt it all >: (
but it wasn't too bad, i cooked lunch for us and only moron looked as if he had a grudge with the food.

me and moron in my kitchen, i know my kitchen is ugly. tell me about it.

see moron wash dishes for the first time in his life OMG., his virgin undetergented- fingers. all his life he has a 24 carat diamond encrusted spoon in his mouth. o;

we gave him a makeover and it turned out so well, i think ruth fell in love with moron. if its not for her NEW ahbeng LOVE, i can always give moron to her ;D say, a lovely haircut by some hot m'sian guy and a omg-you-so-turn-me-on sexy long sleeved shirt. WHAT CAN I SAY, his height and built just accentuate the shirt so well.

not that i wanted to crop out his face but he blinked and that's terribly not-gorgeous so yeah, i had to save his reputation. anyway! he looks more matured now. lol.

fruitful study trip at vivo yesterday. -,- totally fruitful . anyway, watched EVAN almighty like again. white dog cafe was like SUPER EXPENSIVE and food super yucks. at least to me. but peanut sure enjoyed himself with his glass.

my bear is called peanut. his name is baobao but when ruth thought baobao was moron, i had to use bear's english name. ruth is good photographer! not as good as me =x but who's complaining? LOL IM KIDDING. i can only pose, i mean like pose for the photo, i enhance the beauty of it, isn't it -,-

this boy- see his nice hair cut? he looks effin cute :D