after reading ruth's and qimin's emo posts, i've decided to be emo and post some emo things too. LETS BE EMO.
the pain's still extant, just without the tears, without a word. {writing style no.5 }
when you left, it was the last day of october, near midnight. and you made me start november alone. i still remember your messages, the words like papercuts they hurt. i pleaded, and begged for you not to go. begging for a second chance. my heart was wincing, drowning itself in guilt and agony.
when you left, the footprints i left in your heart sank like sand. no trace, no scars, no memories. i cried, and cried. everyday was a chore. i got so tired of being without you. got so tired of trying to make you remember someone you've already forgotten.
when you left, i looked at all of the screenshots we took together. i couldnt play the game that started us out anymore. i wonder if you remember how we first met. virtual world with feelings from reality, ellinia channel 9, slime tree o; i remember the first words we exchanged, your annoyance with my friend, the dispute,.when we unexpectedly became friends, i knew from then i will just fall in love with you.
when you left, i dreaded going to the place we first met. i can still remember what you wore, what we did. when we met; it was one day after jonas' birthday, you wore a white quiksilver shirt and billabong pants, and red/white power shoes. right then, i was so worried that i wouldn't be good looking enough for you. i loved you the moment you said " do you want to hold my hand? "
when you left, everything i stood for fell apart. i cant fathom why i'd never cherished you, and i regretted. i blamed myself, i hated myself. but nothing could bring you back. i see you, the other time i logged into the game, saw your character married to someone else. and i cried. i remembered us talking about getting our characters together, the venue, the date, and now when i see you giving your love to someone else, i could only cry, blaming myself, for you could have been mine. i can only wish for her to love you as much as i'd always do.
i love you,. now and as always will.
CANT EMO ANYMORE. going to cry. bye people
