she wouldn't post about love; not ever again.

i know i said it'd be my last post about him. yet all my flair for words struggled to stop, abandoning the wreck i am now. not a single word wanted to be told, not for anything but him. this boy, he's the sun of my planet that solely orbits. my words... they feared to be chosen to describe him for his beauty far surpassed what words could paint.

so tears broke free from the prison in my mind last night. how could they not? after so long, he finally spoke. monosyllabic words. was i wrong? to believe I was still existent in his mind, playing with his heart strings like how he does mine. What words are there to describe such a love?

Irony tore me apart. even if the sands of time could flow backwards, the decision i made perhaps could be delayed... but never avoided. I hate how I bestow him with such immense power over all entities of my life. How much I love him. All the fragments of our memories are scattered across all places, evoking chaos within my broken heart with every few steps I take. How possible is it to heal when he was what kept me alive?\

I am such a monster. but he, is epiphany of love.

all these fucked up assignments

HELP ME!!! im drowning in my assignments. its taking me forever to finish writing Sweet Cyanide, my next erotic essay! its so short only. I havent even reach 20% what the fuck :(
but this essay is a little morbid. i've been watching too much gore and rape and all.

What is the world coming to! nooooo