she wouldn't post about love; not ever again.

i know i said it'd be my last post about him. yet all my flair for words struggled to stop, abandoning the wreck i am now. not a single word wanted to be told, not for anything but him. this boy, he's the sun of my planet that solely orbits. my words... they feared to be chosen to describe him for his beauty far surpassed what words could paint.

so tears broke free from the prison in my mind last night. how could they not? after so long, he finally spoke. monosyllabic words. was i wrong? to believe I was still existent in his mind, playing with his heart strings like how he does mine. What words are there to describe such a love?

Irony tore me apart. even if the sands of time could flow backwards, the decision i made perhaps could be delayed... but never avoided. I hate how I bestow him with such immense power over all entities of my life. How much I love him. All the fragments of our memories are scattered across all places, evoking chaos within my broken heart with every few steps I take. How possible is it to heal when he was what kept me alive?\

I am such a monster. but he, is epiphany of love.

all these fucked up assignments

HELP ME!!! im drowning in my assignments. its taking me forever to finish writing Sweet Cyanide, my next erotic essay! its so short only. I havent even reach 20% what the fuck :(
but this essay is a little morbid. i've been watching too much gore and rape and all.

What is the world coming to! nooooo

100509

The very last post i will write about you.

Like my every other letter, I start with; I love you.
Probably more than i've ever loved anyone. nor anyone ever will. Its hard to forget those tiny moments we had. The candies you bought and the nonsense we do. I guess i've been stuck with you for so long, we've almost been everywhere together.

So much so that it's asphyxiating with every step i take. When i got together with you, i was mentally prepared for the emotional pain that i will go through. and it has been hell of a ride. But you do it so well the way you play my heart out on a string it's impossible not to be so madly in love with you.

The last time i held you in my arms i hated life for being so cruel. To have given me someone so perfect for me and yet not the honor to keep him by my side. Then our tears started to feed the ache and everything just got too heartbreaking we had to try and ignore the pain for a second and just... lie there together, mentally exhausted and emotionally overwhelmed. Just as always.

You are too beautiful, and too good to be true. I think i've drained all the love i can ever give all out to you. It's probably not gonna come back, and i'm probably not gonna ever dish out so much ever again. But you are not to blame. it's acquiescent. I'm never tired, never truly sad, never angry, never unavailable, never sick whenever i have to do something to make you happy. but... i was also never myself most of the time.

The change you brought about to me however, was for the better for me. And this i have to thank you so much. Right now, i would die to have you in my arms again. Run my fingers down your skinny frame, feel your cheekbones and watch you flutter those absurdly long lashes of yours. too cute. you'd show me that expression- you know, that one. the one which makes my knees go weak and render me vulnerable.

I'd go on and on. But i know i have to let you go. like, for real. forever. You probably couldn't care less now that you have always had the upper hand in the relationship, and being the strong, practical man you've always been.

I wish you all the best. You probably wouldn't even know this post ever existed. But i am going to spill all these out and that's it. I have to go forward and not look back. not even spare a moment to feel the stab in my heart. Because i guess.. just maybe, now its my turn to let someone else love me... like how i loved you.

And just like how it always ends, I love you baby. So much.

truth behind letting go.

Halloween! I can't wait. Haven't you guys missed me? Been quite fucked up lately. I mean, what's new? HA HA HA. I will wear the scream mask to work when its the Halloween festival. And hang my spider at the shop!!! HEHEHEHE.


Do you see my dino peeking from the edge of the photo? He is so cute isn't he.

Forever reblog this. HAHAHAHAHAH. Where are you guys going for halloween?

did you guys mizz me? :( school's been a bitch, but as compared to bitches, its far better. Will come back with a major update after sister's birthday! :D

smooth operator.

I can't breathe. See you guys in a bit. :(

Best i ever had.

I want to lie on your chest again. and we'd fall in love, for every split second.

then as i lay, close to your heart, i'll beg you to take me back to the start.

But what can I do? I guess God's decided i'm never meant for you.

I could leave you, and try to forget. yet i know, you'll always be, 
the best i ever had.

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 DUDES. VENDING MACHINE THAT DISPENSES UNDERWEAR! 
I guess sometimes, men just wet themselves.

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Rule 1 of Ambstylz Eat Sleep Shit: Always starve unless you are able to make yummy omelet.

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 I can see that it's normal for people to ride horses to town.

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Skinny Pizza @ Cityhall. It iz gud.
AmbeRATING for the bolognise pizza: 9.2/10!

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No time to draw complete storyboard and photosets for ALAB EPI 5 P2, know you guys are waiting for it. So i can only do a simple ALAB QUIZ :D hope it can contain your hunger for now ;)
BUT NO LA NOT NOW havent draw finish ;( 2 days ok?

Buenas Noches guys. I have to attend sch with rich cheena bobos in a couple of hours' time.

Lie with me, till the stars fall as shooting stars; then we'll make a wish for us to remain how we are.

Go on & use me.

The tumblr community is too addictive to be true. And currently the weather and current time is just making me so lethargic. I was just wondering, on the making (or continuation) of my story which i composed 2 years back; I am keen to work on it again. Will you guys kindly tell me will it be better to post pictures together with the story? Or perhaps just one photo for every chapter?

exuberant;

I watched as his slender fingers smoothed down the edge of his guitar; plucking the strings and working such an astounding melody in all its frenzied movements. His brows were creased in almost pure concentration. I couldn't find anywhere else to place my eyes but be transfixed on the beautiful posture. Eyes closed, he took my breath away-

I pictured my thighs wrapped around him, spilling dirty talk into his ears. Then feel the prickle of his hair as they stood erected, blood pounding in his veins. His fingers would probably work somewhere else with the same orgasmic ease, too. Tongue trailed down his neck, his breath drew more weight as I felt him asphyxiating in a smorgasbord of delirium.

Such a tease. His manhood was gnawing at the already damp fabric of his pants....


Oh my god. someone just spoilt my mood HAHAHAHHA. my stomach is growling >:(
you guys like reading such nasty stuff right!!!! HEHE. keep you updated. AND ALAB QUIZ WILL BE UP SOON!!! :D:DD:D

Almost excusable.

Hello guys :)

I am back! I'm sure all of you heard of this song. Its dedicated to someone. He probably doesn't read my blog, whilst ironically his close kin probably read every last bit. oh well we all know how the story ends.

It's raining. and i am so sad. Because rainy days reminds me of him. I guess it always will. How can i allow myself to love someone so much, i have no idea. I wish you all the best. and i hope the next time round, you will love someone else as much as i have loved you. Its too bad god made you the perfect one for me but also that we are never meant to be.

Brainstorming for ALAB :(

going genting in a few hours time. Please miss me guys!

Back with vengence

Hi guys. I am back! :D 

Been a rough time for me to get through. & i did it.  I guess the best solution was that some assholes are best to be ignored and left alone. Although I had to break my heart to complete the mission, i realized that there's always another option. And I want to be myself again. I realized that it's a shame to close my blog just cuz of some people who did nothing but insult my pride and doubt my true character.

I don't see what's wrong with being myself. Do you? Sure I always do get criticized but who doesn't. At least there are people who love me... like you! :D

Hold tight cuz you'd be in for a ride. But of course tumblr has been wrapping itself tightly against my life thus you can always head over at: http://isaywhateverfuckiwant.tumblr.com for your dose of really hilarious tumblr-ish photos that i reblogged. Some quite indecent too. HAHAHAHA you know me ;)
I am still trying to figure a way to integrate them both together but it's kind of hard... or maybe i am noobshit.

Ok guys. watch this space :) ITS TIME TO CHANGE YOUR HOMEPAGE!!! hahahaha.

LOL. cute bo.

WHY YOU SO CUTE

Hi guys! Please do NOT watch HOP. it's not nice la really. if you didn't like Alvin and the chipmunks then you won't like this. D:

My eye is swollen. Fuck. school is starting for everyone except for me. Im useless :'( Anyway I just realized this post very long leh wtf.

Tcc's food imba expensive sia. But looks yummy hor? Hahaha

Went to farm mart with my sister & Hilda:

Potential Milkmaids!I'd really love to draw milk maid costumes on them but it slipped my mind whilst i was editing. lol.

FISH SPA!!! D:

Ya it kinda gave me the mini piranha vibes. Imagine if one of them mutates and starts eating my flesh OMG. My favorite QOO drink is back!

My Best friend

HAAHAHAHAHA LOOK AT THIS:

HAHAHAHAHA.

I'm brilliant. Here's a pauuuuuuu for you to see. Hahaha. Pauuuuu.

LOL.

My hair is screwed. NO MORE RED COLOR, EVER. and NO MORE OF THE SAME SALON.

HAHAHAHAHA I'm gonna get killed for this: (but wait, she doesnt use the com. HAHAHA )

OMG WTF DAMN FUNNY RIGHT HAHAHA

Quick, pay tribute to your king

Ash loves this drink. REALLY LA!!! and its NOT ALGAE but it really looks like isn't it!

Chika Sun.

Once upon a time, a boy called Flower wanted to come look for Amber but his phone was running flat. Amber waited for eons - she couldn't wait anymore thus she did this:

Spelling error la LOVE IS IN THE END wtf. Does that even makes sense?

ITS CALLED A KINDER BONBON! BON BON BONBONBONBONBONB HAHAHA

My sister has two furry balls. HAHAAHAHA

STORY TIME!!!!

CHEW KIA YEE'S TITLE OF FAME (Latest edition)

Look's like ahlians are getting more and more IT savvy and polluting our FPS games D: OMG!!!! SHOOT EM ALL.

MANHATTEN FISH MARKET: 3.90 fish & chips promotion. WHY SO CHEAP?

says a dubious amber: Maybe radiated :(

Fooling around in Cine with Ashley Sun:

HAHAHA I PUT MASCARA. SO LONG!!!! He looks like an ostrich :D

This photo is creepy. OMG WHO IS THAT GIRL IN THE BACKGROUND... I thought I was alone... *shudders

Lousy cam skills by Goh Eng hau lolol.

See ENGHAU'S FACE. he got a shock after taking that scary photo above. /petrified mode

Some Alabs (ahlians ah butches) quarrelling damn noisily. HAHAHAHA. You see 4 of them? 5mins later there were 3904289583959392 of them.

LOVE IS IN THE END NOW :( Bye guys! Hope you have a good weekend ahead. Watch RIO ok? Its fantastic.