hey there delilah

you are a murderer when you speak
the words kill me with lightning speed.
my heart fights a losing battle
never learning, egregious ever.

iloveyousomuch

i don't know who to say it to anymore.

unwowed

failed attempt to make poem,. but will post it anyway. its getting late and im cranky. i mean its late and im getting cranky. failed math, second lowest in class, ruth&amb just totally bff. one f9 slapped in my face doesnt seem to motivate me much thou.

mushroom's called retard. i think it looks retarded and it bounces. jiabin tried it and jessie raped it.


emo picture taken that gave me emo shit inspiration that triggered negative comments from everyone. posting later.



wilson thong spammed stupid pictures of such things over msn, grow up, boy.



okay here's the thing, before you read the poem with high hopes. instead of adopting my usual style of writing that requires erudite study of the poem, i was trying out a different way, using my structure fetish. this poem fuses simple words, shorter sentences, bringing out the story in a simpler, easier to read way. so please compromise your expections to the core of the very basic goal i was aiming at.

this is an emo poem. okay, duh.

ectastic kill

let time pass me by
and your arms be my sky.
let tears make me blind
and your vision be my eyes.

my tears, your blood
our hatred that floods.
my lies, your heart
our world that parts.

let you not ask me why
my lies are unbenign.
let us not deny,
the love that will decline.

my anger, your dismay
our past that grays.
my insistence, your way
our love that dies today.

okay that's it. im very emo now. i want to cry. i cant find one of the poems, written using my style. it rocks cuz not many people exactly sees the meaning. there's a story in EVERY line.

i found it :D okay do a compare. :

malicious irony.

the truth filtered through like diamonds,
yet alittle at a time, love confinement,
cant lose what love never had before,
reticent of lies, or none at all.

yet the yearning, that poor girl
her eyes cried to blood from water.
heart, alas trapped even with wings
lips losing the consonnace to sing.

static chimes in the phone line
inscrutable monotone, location undefine.
his husky voice, near yet far
inextricable before, strangers now on par.

chasing the shadows of her broken dreams
irreplacable evocation it seems.
elegiac mirth drove close to suicide
mediocre bullet, fate decides.

okay bye, im peeling like a snake.

quizresults

thank you to all of you, for taking my quiz especially my didi, ruth and klinsen and wendy for getting a heartbreaking and staggering score of 20 & 30. sobs. then congratulations to moron steph and daniel for getting 100 and 90, thou i have no idea how steph got 100, probaby did a test run or something. ;P

vivo was badbadbad, ruth looked like my mother in her stylish dress, no im not saying she's old, im saying i look waaaaaay too young deckered in my tshirt shorts slips. so yeah, and p.s, i think vivo is a waste of space. DID YOU HEAR IT, VIVO IS A WASTE OF SPACE. WE DO NOT HAVE SPACE LIKE CHINA, SO WE BUILD UP NOT FAR,. AND HALF OF THE FEMALES AT VIVO ARE WEARING HEELS. IF YOU WANT MORE BUSINESS, ENSURE THAT THEY CAN CONTINUE WALKING WITHOUT BRUSING.

do you know that vivo is so big that i can get lost even though im only on the first floor? MOTHERFUCKING BIG. why would you want a BATA shop that is as big as a 3room flat. WTF. i rather they use the space to like build outdoor theme park or something. okay enough of bitching.

have a nice day. bye.

lol quiz.

YO PEOPLE. IM BACK, FEELING MORE EMO THAN EVER.
i am fat, ugly, whatever~ diarrhea is like everyday for me, i hope it makes me SLIMMER. then its worth the pain and agony. lol.

I've got a nice quiz for all of you man. SO TAKE IT. ;D

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=070920111307-511254&

no cheating :D

random

random klinsen :

http://youtube.com/watch?v=QHv3HboV6ns

random search :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnFV-fvgOu0&mode=related&search=

note: you have no idea. i want a parrot now. and will name it dickhead. together with my rabbit, goldfishes, cactus and 3 mushrooms! i will train it to scold vulgarities so that next time when i have a messy quarrel, i need not talk, it'll do it for me : P

justus: omg.. you are a dinosaur. you are still using paint? o;

amber: yes, what can you do about it?

justus: haven you heard of photoshop?

amber: dont force me to blog about you.

justus: uh, if you do, your blog will be an international hit.

dave: how come your fever is so high, must be cuz im not there.

amb: uh, if you're here, i will be hot enough to cook a whole chicken.

dave: not so kua zhang la, egg, maybe.

amb: wtf? okay you are hotter than the sun.

dave: ( falls for the trick dumb-ly ) of course la, the sun's so faraway!

( he has no idea, i didnt mean the heat the sun gives out from the galaxy to singapore, but the temperature of the SUN itself. )

AHA IDIOT : D
anyone interested in him please pm me! he is called DAVE, 18, single, short and stupid :D

says google.com: the temperature of the sun is approximately 6000°C .

THERE IS A DISGUSTING BUG ON MY ALARM CLOCK.

*screams abit. rabbit looked up from its stone food bowl -,-

btw dave reminds me of a picture xiao xin sent me, says it, a simple question from whowantstobeaMILLIONARE.

what is the largest of the answers below?

-Watermelon

-Elephant

-Moon

-Golf ball

Woman answered : ELEPHANT.

what about you? :D

Dave sure answer elephant too. but as aliken to the sun thing, the answer is moon, we measure the size of the REAL MOON, not the puny moon we see from here.

and look at what people from around the world do with their 80dollars & "god-given" bodies. :

i believe he meant: fuck the world.

human advertising? o.o

wow, michael jackson hater.

okay the green thing, i suppose its chocolate. and the devil scaring it, no link at all.
yeah people. bye man -,-

p.s JEFF GAVE ME INSPIRATION AGAIN :D here goes. :

& just as i thought you were the one,
time revealed otherwise as truth becomes.
i opened my heart to you,
yet you slammed it so hard i could no longer feel.

you scrutinized my agony with disbelief,
shaking me off with false relief.
tell me, girl,what are you going to do,
corrode the memories of me and you?

im closing my eyes, sorrow resides,
invisible tears leave me, in fancy flights.
mind's falling into the bitter relapse.
inscrutable expressions as a decoying pretext.

asunder is my guilty heart,
admitted to allowing its foolish counterpart.
don't shower me with your duplicated lies,
then hurt me with your false love that denies.

i loved you girl, but now its over.
& i missed you girl, but im here no longer.

omgx10

OMG I KNOW I SHOULDNT BE PLAYING BUT :

remember this? it was the previous one:



now i have another JUST!! :

it was a finish move again! yay :D amber,amber. look at my score, ITS 6 digit when people has only 5! LOL ;x

and today was "borrow-tie-frenzy". being like 4eleven, the typical every-teacher-discriminate class, more than 50% of us didn't bring our ties. so blim, being a bitch at times, asked us to go find ties. scurrying around like white mice, we ran down to terrorize the sec3s for ties. Blim even said some girls tried tie-robbing. ( forcefully pull ties off juniors. ) seems like all of us were pretty worked up enough for prelims. hur`

thanks to klinsen for both the calculator and tie, and wei cong too, for the tie to lend joy! although you don't even know i have a blog -,-but you stay 7 floors above me! you will know someday. LOL. revising later, with ruth and her brother and brofriend.

"PARAGRAPH DELETED DUE TO EXCESSIVE EMOTIONS AND WASTED WEEKENDS FOR SOME PEOPLE AND UNRULY SPAMMERS WHO DONT BELONG ANYWHERE! IM PRETTY AND GOOD AT ENGLISH SO GO FUCK YOURSELF! "

random: i think tall, slim guys are the sex! bye-

new blogskin but failed attempt

tell me about it! i spent so long drawing it but i can't find a template code that i like to fit the picture in. im still figuring, but if anyone wants the picture, tell me. i'll send it to you. LOL i made a blogskin for my sister!

VARIAN SAYS I NEVER UPDATE PICTURES. o,o so i zilianed abit and took TWO, but this one is nicer, so show you! LOL. see that guy behind me.? coughs. he kept looking at me -,- JIABIN IS VERY MEAN;

jiabin : i dont like to take bus with amber.
amber : why?
jiabin : because alot of the poly guys keep looking at you.
amber : fag you -,-

wendy & jessie : that day *** break down, damn funny lor.

i think my friends are so cute! wendy jessie and jiabin was reenacting the scene of some girl in my class. uh. yes gossip. i dont really have the thing for it but i like listening. especially when wendy is acting the scene.


jeff: eh send me the link leh.
amber: link for what?
jeff: the poems you wrote in mak's blog? you copy from website one right. share leh dont unfriendly.
amber: wtf! i wrote them myself!
jeff: lol dont lie la. eh send the link leh.
amber: ..

OMG JEFF YOU DARE DOUBT ME!&*%^#$
here is a poem I WRITE, inspiration by you, but female version.
{p.s dont think too much. poem's emo but bears no meaning }

the sky's a perpetual gloom,
warning of a love bound for doom.
the clouds painted a crimson red,
crying for the ultimate heartbreak.

a wasted glory of mirth,
prime of hatred, the very first.
truncated, fate, we got so lovedrunk,
failing to see, what we've become.

i'm causing you pain,
its too impossible to remain.
i'm bringing you hate,
freedom stretches like an open gate.

i killed my heart, and let you go.
drowning in tears, yet i won't show.
watching the provebial sunrise,
my love's smothered in surmise.

now i see you with her, can't help but cry.
blaming myself, for you could have been mine.
the rain won't stop falling since you went away,
yet wrong had i, i didn't want you to stay.

i love you, boy.

English paper 2 tomorrow, wish me luck, ya'll.

mak emo.

God, i didn't know Mak has such an emo, pink- cute- bunny blog.





MATH screwed me in all directions today.


you won't believe it. i was actually 30mins late for my god damn FIRST prelim paper. why must it be math. omg. i hate math. reflexive has so many new exciting games! walaozxcz.


and guess what. SOCIALSTUDIES screwed my hand. i wrote 2pages for a 6mark question and half a page for a 12 mark question so yeah, that rocks. and i think my microwave exploded. I HEARD A POP SOUND.





brb.





okay it was popping but didn't explode. bunny's making music with its metal bowl. it eats more than any one of us in our family. goldfish ranks second. sister's obsessed with the pc just as much as daddy. something good about having your father crazy about the computer games is that whatever thats spoilt., ( speakers & keyboard for me ) you will get them changed to a new one. good! :D





okay ttyl, sorry for msn language but im screwed today.





gtg bbye cya . HAHA





b4 i go, here is cute guy pic for you, interested please tell me. btw he stays at kallang and people nickname him ANACONDA. you know what i mean. winkwink.

p.s sorry ben but im bored and you are too cute, anyway , right! :D

wakjk

went out with dan today, it's our 7th month- so yeah, he bought me a guess wallet.
its what i always wanted and im so damn touched. NO IM NOT MATERLIASTIC. and he lost to me in mario kart. EVERYONE LOST TO ME IN MARIO KART :D

right, ruth? HAHAHAHAHHAA=x

went sakae teppanyaki at cineleisure! if you are rich, please go try it. the food's nice.
thank you baby. for everything, for today. but you still owe me money =x LOL
( stop stealing my food while im bathing >: ( )


anyway, BROTHA HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY =/ andy's SO DAMN CUTE. he was cowering behind his jacket. ( now i know what his jacket was for. i thought he was cold ) everytime he dont see the movie he waste 10cents. so lang fei.

movies you must watch:

i know who killed me nc16
1408
dead silence
evan almighty

movies you must NOT watch:

apartment 1303


kthxbye people.
( snatching porridge from daniel now. )

woohoo

dan: ambertouille !


i like to cook, yessssirrr i can give you ANYTHING you want. that isn't expensive, unless you pay. :D wanted to revise with ruth but rainy weather spoilt it all >: (
but it wasn't too bad, i cooked lunch for us and only moron looked as if he had a grudge with the food.

me and moron in my kitchen, i know my kitchen is ugly. tell me about it.

see moron wash dishes for the first time in his life OMG., his virgin undetergented- fingers. all his life he has a 24 carat diamond encrusted spoon in his mouth. o;

we gave him a makeover and it turned out so well, i think ruth fell in love with moron. if its not for her NEW ahbeng LOVE, i can always give moron to her ;D say, a lovely haircut by some hot m'sian guy and a omg-you-so-turn-me-on sexy long sleeved shirt. WHAT CAN I SAY, his height and built just accentuate the shirt so well.

not that i wanted to crop out his face but he blinked and that's terribly not-gorgeous so yeah, i had to save his reputation. anyway! he looks more matured now. lol.

fruitful study trip at vivo yesterday. -,- totally fruitful . anyway, watched EVAN almighty like again. white dog cafe was like SUPER EXPENSIVE and food super yucks. at least to me. but peanut sure enjoyed himself with his glass.

my bear is called peanut. his name is baobao but when ruth thought baobao was moron, i had to use bear's english name. ruth is good photographer! not as good as me =x but who's complaining? LOL IM KIDDING. i can only pose, i mean like pose for the photo, i enhance the beauty of it, isn't it -,-

this boy- see his nice hair cut? he looks effin cute :D

this is it

that boy. he'd caused enough tears to choke a sea.
i remember those words i took with me;
embarked on that relationship. oblivious to regrets.
i hear him saying words i won't forget.
now i wish i was deaf and blind.

this boy. he has so little to say.
he's a million worlds away.
yet close enough to fall for me.
i recall his quiet confession, nothing fancy.
seducing me with youth that left me.

that boy, i knew him forever.
the mistakes we made are repeated over.
every thing that made us stay fell apart,
all that's struggling are our stubborn hearts.
even my words gave up and left me mute.

this boy. he gets confused,
but his sadness, he never made it an issue.
i owe him an explaination yet i speak it not.
i rather keep and not lose what i've got.
yet i know its too selfish of me;

that boy, he said he's sorry,
but the verdict's passed his heart's own jury.
i remember all the happy times i'd say,
yet the dark ones are blocking our way.
our relationship, he's left keeping watch.

this boy, i've yet to admit.
know not of love but i still bought it.
this very moment, we are our barrier,
time has the say but he was nowhere closer.
i blame it on fate and fate on me.

that boy, i make a public apology,
its not a virgin gesture but as you can see.
i tried my best and i know i'm wrong.
but he killed my mind, i am not strong.
he says sorry.. and just watch me die.-

so this is it, fate's left me twisted
and my heart's undecided.
just blind me, mute me.
& watch me die.


to that boy's friends: fuck all of you.