fuck evd

i am in a bad mood. rushing non stop for countless sleepless nights and ending up being insulted, i feel like quitting that fucked up EVD more than ever. and, being a lecturer, not knowing the word " renascent " is not the problem, it is thinking that as long as you dont know the word, no such word exist which is the problem.

but of course, destroying my structure is fine. ;) because its a shitty module and you are a fucked up lecturer.

anyway i shall not let it get into me much. i like my board and so it shall stay that way. evd people are fucked up too. selfish people, tell me about it.

okay let's not delve into this- i've cried enough. my eyes were O.O now its -_- .
mummy's cooking for me tomorrow ;D


uh, duh it's not tomorrow's food. it was last week's!~ yes i know it looks uber lovely. but ignore the raw fish at the back O:

say hi to bavy! :DD

I KNOW ITS CUTE LA.

anyway, JUNWEN. i lost the snapshot. can we take again? speaking of which.,
happy belated birthday to GARY. ;D

okay my eyes are swollen. *FRANTICALLY GRABS ICE. i want a rich hubby. >: so i can fucking go slap harith and paul, set fire to the class and then live happily ever after. woots!

<3 JIAWEI, STITCH(wh) AND WEIQUAN, altho we lost the match but i felt better ;D

bye guys, tell me that tomorrow will be a better day ;/

wq sucks balls.

HELLO GUYS :D i have oodles of photos! *camwhore-smile :)

i am blogging from Pan Pacific Hotel. woohoo. :D

before i start. on a random day at dave's house, i saw this :

Junquan was grossed out when he held up the cup and i almost vomitted. My lizard friend and the moth was chasing each other and omgwtf i wonder how they ended in my green tea. to think i wanted to drink it --

and this. i was walking to the bus stop. and i was like omfgwtf? the thing is not about the car. its about how the fuck it got there. =/

SATURDAY: woohoo. ;D

Today is go pan pacific hotel day! heehee. the room costs 350 a night. its not bad you know! I was like facking excited la. i spent a long time whoring in front of the mirror asking myself why i am so fat and ugly. but anyway yes it took me long to choose my clothes, do my mascara and hair. poor jiawei had to wait for me before we start dotaing T.T HAHA :D

camhoring got better of me. you see, its pretty tricky to try to take a full body shot of what you are wearing entirely + an act cute face, on my really pathetic 2.0 megapixels camera phone.

My really lovely topshop petticoat top and mango jeans! ;D woohoo. yes im ugly STOP RUBBING IT IN, *thinking about jw saying im ugly

MY SIGNATURE FROWNforthe camera! (exclusively for renjie: frowning is good! )

Pan pacific hotel is not bad at all. I've been there a few years back. and it still looks as good. :D

the room looks nice right. and the pillows are damn cuddly la. LOLOL.

YES, camwhoring seems just the right thing to do then, Self timer was pretty useful. HAHA. thepillows are so omfg cotton candy! /wrists

Being a student in environment design, i see that this architect has a fetish for pointy edges. and potted plants. but anyway, the lifts move like snails.

OH, emo shots are my personal favourites. O: went to jack's place for dinner with dennis. he was wearing this stripey green shirt from burberry and it resembles the table cloth LOL. Jack's House Special! Dennis is as predictable as dave. and they both like garlic bread. ;D

So much for distilled water! * runs 2km to 711 for 65cents drink. They charge 8 dollars for distilled water, when we can actually drink the tap water cuz we are in SINGAPORE. crazy shit.

NO, NO one was around when i took this photo. pardon the obscenity, YOU KNOW, ITS DAMN COLD, TO GET OUT OF THE BATH to activate self timer and splash back into the tub, strike a pose and try to cover as much as i can and not look too ugly. but yes, the hot bath water was really good with all the bath salts ;D and the towels are so fluffy! *hugs the towel affectionately.

want to buy a BATHROBE, which is too big for yourself and it bears a hideously big pan pacific hotel logo for 60bucks? O;

what, set a guiness world record of " most number of hotel bathrobes collected "

CONTOUR! *omg laughs REALLY happily thinking about my course in tp.

i have many stupid act artistic shots! i can't resist flowers. NOOO I CANT. you will see why soon.

Not that these are flowers, but well this is the LOVELY VIEW i can see from my room. ! :D

Is it just me, or does ritz carlton look like a modem from here =/
i have more photos! *of flowers! but i guess now my post is like too long O:
anyway i want to thank DENNIS. *swings back hair bimbotically. TOTALLY. ;)

anyway i bought my granddaddy boxers. he promised me he will wear! how cool is that!
*fights the urge to tickle wq

BYE GUYS SEE YOU SOON,. :D

ask myself

HELLO GUYS :D its a lovely friday night, silent and cold. perfect for emoing. jun quan's out at camp, wei quan is somewhat lost in his world of maple and i feel so alone. but its okay ;D dennis is on his way with my dinner and i'll probably drag him to watch a movie with me later.

im lazy to blog about what happened for the last 3 days -.- BECAUSE ITS THE SAME, BORING ROUTINE.

as i sit here listening to my complaining stomach, i have a sudden urge to type this:

i suddenly feel as though i am stripped of all my rights to pass the verdict, in this relationship that i am bound to. as though i am just sitting at the vertiginous edge, waiting for his deciding answer, yet never knowing if that is the truth or the lie.

sitting in the empty room, i buried myself in the comforting gloom. darkness seems so welcoming right then. now my heart is lost in its own thoughts. i want to brace myself and let self pity indulge in its shameless escape. alas, worthy tears for a worthless love. i am so tired of being sorry. this atonement is brutal and i am paying more than what i owed. standing on the lighter side of the scale, i had enough of ostracising the asymmetry in our love.

a push, a pull, rhythmic recede. oh, memories of you and me, are they hinting or dying to be set free? i guess your answer too, screams to be allowed a backdoor. am i too clever, or are you too ignorant? nevertheless ,with what little hope i have, i'll use it up.

YES, brunchner is here. ( breakfast lunch dinner )

monday's happenings.

LOOK FION, SKINNY AHLIANS. walking behind them damn ke lian, cuz must listen to their constant :klickklack: of their stumpy heels.




MONDAY; o9 june. >2nd day without you.;


So, i've decided the many events happening are wearing me out and confusing me, so i'd decided to go visit my mentor and take a break.



Went out with dennis today. spent some time preparing. after all, GOING OUT WITH RICH KID LEH, must dress to match his social status sia. but of course, my love for a balance in black & white has led to mis matching underwear, too.

HAHAHA, you get my point. but no, they are not meant to mean anything more than colors. *winkwink.

We went to watch ( read this space, andy tjoeng! ) CHRONICLES OF NARNIA, PRINCE CASPIAN. i believe you will like it, brother dear. but to me, its abit too silly, having kids to act like adults. -especially when one of them is uglier than me. AND MOVING TREES omfg.

Had fancy manhattan which dennis thought it was "okayokay lor, "

and he wore a shirt that is more expensive than anything that was on me that day.

expensive armani shirt!

says an emo dennis: you look nice, so whatever you wear is nice. ugly people like me need good looking clothes to feel better. >:

went clinic and read a funny book :/

ROAR. IM A SHARK O: billy came over to dave's void deck and taught me some homework, aww. sweet boy. was gobbling down the fries which dave refused to cook a few days back when he called from thailand. but i wasn't really paying attention because jun quan was making me laugh. :D anyway he seemed eager to hang up so i purposely dragged the conversation to let him listen to me bitching about him with his mother. HAHAHAHA.

then at night, weiquan sneaked out from his room to come rush me to do his blogskin walaozxxczcz. ROMANTIC TIMES, MAN. dave will be jealous if he knows what happened.. HAHAHAHHA. dont think too much, i didn't rape him.. yet. HAHAHA.

dave called again at 2am, and told me he couldnt sleep cuz he miss me. Nonsense, i bet he slept too much during the bus ride. lololol. I slept damn well cuz drawing on paint and playing with weiquan has drained my hp to 1.

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weihao came over a week plus ago. HAPPY TIMES man. life with weihao is very amusing. and other than the horfun = soup with kway tiao incident,:

Look at this! what is this? yes its some dental flosses. or not?

yay, its a wallet! :D eh weihao damn clever la, like that no one steal his money! O:

before i go off to indulge in virtual villagers 3 & dota, here's something to keep you hungry when driving along changi ;D

minatory countdown;

^ contour of me and fion! nice right. walaozxzxzx skilled photographer lehz. LOL

ratio of people reading my blog to people who tag - 50:1
i wonder if i should feel sad, or happy o;

but anyway. dave's gone to thailand, and we've both agreed we should use this 10 days to sort ourselves out. so yes, being an organized person i shall blog it down.

Sunday, 08

Woke up and heard dave's mother saying that he forgot to bring his passport and had to head back to take it. i already had a hunch that it will happen but i kept it to myself in case he thought i didnt remind him on purpose so that he will be late ; /

spent the day rushing my journals for Harith's class and drawing a cubicle for sweehong. but well, my cubicle looks lopsided and out of proportion so i left it alone. and of course, with weiquan and junquan at home, its hard to not dota :D

but being ImBa ( dota term for too pro ) wq and jq made alot of people leave games halfway so we had to restart and restart the games. oh, so they were saying about the sad lives of pros, i get it now. HAHAHAHA.

i've decided to go clubbing! since ruth has been pestering me to and there's no one sleeping with me in the room; why not? : D maybe i can see some cute guy that will make me forget about dave. lolololol. not that i am so anxious to let him go, but i believe when guys are indecisive, they will drag it on and on and on until a situation calls for a suitable answer.

Played dota with billy's team and we pwned their asses. heehee. but okay poor billy. it was pretty unfair to him because his nightstalker was still in training. i was number3 out of 10 :D
( i think that's because i farmed my ass off. lol )

LOL a random picture i found in "my received files" LOL LOL LOL.

LOOOOOOOL. they are going to pwn my ass if they see this.

and, yes i am going on a diet ;(( because i went to fion's friendster and saw our photo. DAMN I LOOK FUCKING PLUMP. and yes i am pretending to be an ah lian. BUT I CANT CUZ AHLIANS ARE SKINNY. sianz,.



okay so long guys. see you later. :D *rushes off to gobble down boiled veggies. HAHAHAH.

HUH?

That is moron's burger -.-
GORILLA TISSUE BOX! Makes me happy when sitting in the clinic. :DD heehee.

JAMMING SESSION!

my msn nick was "Where's your heart? "
and ben said :

"erm.. its in the ribcage, on the left of your chest :/ "

_l_ all non lit people -.-